Let not your heart be troubled...

So, you know that scripture in the New Testament that says, "Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid" ? (And yes, I purposely put that question mark outside the quotation marks because that statement should not have a question mark attached to it.) I have learned, and I am still learning, that is a lot more easily said than done. When my life is going along swimmingly, it is easy to put into practice, but when it is not.... Our lives have been really difficult for the last few months, and for the last few weeks especially, I have had to consciously make the choice, throughout each day, to try again to not worry. I have to try to take deep breaths to calm my aching heart. And I usually have to call my husband who will remind me for the 35,692nd time that everything is going to be just fine. It is hard to be a good mom when you are worried. It is hard to be a good friend when you can't see past your own needs. It is hard to be a patient and supportive spouse when you are desperately trying to be a decent person yourself.

I don't mean to sound gloomy. Maybe I should write posts in the morning when I am fresh, rather than in the evening when I am worn down. Life is not easy. I look forward to achieving another plateau where I can look back and think, "That time was really hard, but I am grateful for all the wonderful things I learned from it." For tonight, I will go pray and thank the Lord for the good things in my life, which are many, and try not to worry about the rest.